A new beginning...
This was part of am email I was writing to someone, and I figured it would be a good start to getting everyone up to date with everything that's happened. I wish I'd writing as break was going on! But that's okay, I'll just have to sumarize it more beacuse I didn't I want to try my best to write down as much as possible about it, but not tonight, so here's my start.
Humm... I know it is late once again, but not as late, only around midnight. I am going into my old school again tomorrow to visit the Try.U.M.F. program, again. Hehe. But so much is going on right now that I know I can't sleep anyway. Today I spent 5 hours drawing a toy truck for my drawing class, and I feel like I didn't make it as good as I could have, but I didn't feel like it. This is the first step for me in trying to stress less about my work because I almost got straight A's for last semester! And I didn't have a whole lot of time for myself. So I decided that I could make it beautiful, or I could make my drawing decent and receive a passing grade on it. I know I probably should make it better because I know I can and I know I am not satisfied, but at the same time, I'm always this way and I just want to enjoy school more this semester. And what is my teacher going to do anyway? He's going to look at it for no more than 30 seconds, criticize it, and that's the end of it. So spending the 10 hours I could spend instead of the 5 I already have? Does that seem worth it to you? Not really. I still have to draw a self portrait. Those are the hardest things in the whole world to do...
I am very glad that I got to have this month long break for so many reasons! First of all, I would have cracked otherwise. I would have gone crazy! So much work and so much of it so boring! Not seeing any of my best friends, not dancing, reading, baking, seeing my family. And I wouldn't have gotten to see my best friend who I made up with because he was home for his break too. It also gave me a chance to reflect on my choice of school and the fact that I was starting to not like it. I'm not thrilled to go back, but I believe I am almost ready. I managed to switch out of my worst teacher's class, which will make my life that much better. That means that 4 of my teachers are new, and of the two that are the same, one is bearable and the other is wonderful and teaches my favorite class, photography. I needed that change, even if my classes are the same subjects. At least new teachers, yea? And as I have already told you, I will be dancing now, and I also realized that the friends I have made so far at school are few, but actually really great people. I was just really missing my best friends back home and didn't recognize how lucky I was to have found a few really nice people, you know? I need to submerge myself in life, in good fun, in friends, and in my city. I have a friend who lives in Manhattan, about 20 minutes away from me by train, and we did horribly in keeping in touch! But this time, I'll be visiting him and getting to explore the wonderful city I live in now! How many cities are better than New York? How lucky am I? That's what I need to realize! I'm going to need people to constantly remind me to stop what I'm doing and breath in life, and smile from within because of the happy person I am.
Well, as you know, I could go on forever, and I do want to, but I also want to read. I'm currently reading two books! That's not something I normally do, but one isn't a story, it's just interesting ways of thinking about things. If I haven't already said this to you, books are GOLD and I treasure them.
Yay. That's it for now =)
Humm... I know it is late once again, but not as late, only around midnight. I am going into my old school again tomorrow to visit the Try.U.M.F. program, again. Hehe. But so much is going on right now that I know I can't sleep anyway. Today I spent 5 hours drawing a toy truck for my drawing class, and I feel like I didn't make it as good as I could have, but I didn't feel like it. This is the first step for me in trying to stress less about my work because I almost got straight A's for last semester! And I didn't have a whole lot of time for myself. So I decided that I could make it beautiful, or I could make my drawing decent and receive a passing grade on it. I know I probably should make it better because I know I can and I know I am not satisfied, but at the same time, I'm always this way and I just want to enjoy school more this semester. And what is my teacher going to do anyway? He's going to look at it for no more than 30 seconds, criticize it, and that's the end of it. So spending the 10 hours I could spend instead of the 5 I already have? Does that seem worth it to you? Not really. I still have to draw a self portrait. Those are the hardest things in the whole world to do...
I am very glad that I got to have this month long break for so many reasons! First of all, I would have cracked otherwise. I would have gone crazy! So much work and so much of it so boring! Not seeing any of my best friends, not dancing, reading, baking, seeing my family. And I wouldn't have gotten to see my best friend who I made up with because he was home for his break too. It also gave me a chance to reflect on my choice of school and the fact that I was starting to not like it. I'm not thrilled to go back, but I believe I am almost ready. I managed to switch out of my worst teacher's class, which will make my life that much better. That means that 4 of my teachers are new, and of the two that are the same, one is bearable and the other is wonderful and teaches my favorite class, photography. I needed that change, even if my classes are the same subjects. At least new teachers, yea? And as I have already told you, I will be dancing now, and I also realized that the friends I have made so far at school are few, but actually really great people. I was just really missing my best friends back home and didn't recognize how lucky I was to have found a few really nice people, you know? I need to submerge myself in life, in good fun, in friends, and in my city. I have a friend who lives in Manhattan, about 20 minutes away from me by train, and we did horribly in keeping in touch! But this time, I'll be visiting him and getting to explore the wonderful city I live in now! How many cities are better than New York? How lucky am I? That's what I need to realize! I'm going to need people to constantly remind me to stop what I'm doing and breath in life, and smile from within because of the happy person I am.
Well, as you know, I could go on forever, and I do want to, but I also want to read. I'm currently reading two books! That's not something I normally do, but one isn't a story, it's just interesting ways of thinking about things. If I haven't already said this to you, books are GOLD and I treasure them.
Yay. That's it for now =)
posted by Bonnie at 3:17 AM
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